|I <3 rozerem
||[Apr. 11th, 2007|01:29 pm]
|||||Sublime - What I Got||]|
Oh. Em. Gee. I asked for a prescription to rozerem more or less on a whim while I was getting a prozac scrip from my doctor a couple weeks ago, but I didn't really think it'd be lifechanging. I'd just, you know, have something to fall back on when I can't get to sleep until 5:30 in the morning and end up missing class the next day or running on just a few hours of sleep.
I've been falling asleep between 11:30 pm and 1:00 am every night, consistently. I just take a rozerem tab if I don't feel tired by midnight. I get up in the morning, piddle around the apartment for a while, and then I go in for an early lunch on campus, read (perfectly awake and rested) for a couple hours in the library, and then I go to class. I've been getting way ahead on my reading, so that by the end of the semester, at this rate, I'll have finished all my reading for class weeks in advance and I'll (hopefully) be using my time between eating and class to have written my final papers in advance of their due dates.
I got so used to, from high school onwards, running on a bare minimum of sleep and rushing everything at the last minute, that this is just an entirely new experience for me. I finish class in the afternoon without feeling guilty about how much I still have to do later in the day, and even guiltier at the end of the day as I've continually put off doing any of it. I've got clearly partitioned time in the morning, and I simply work until I'm done at the end of class. I had some lingering worries about law school before now, because while I was confident I could get all the work done (under my old model of rushing at the last minute, with the immense pressure of necessity driving me), I was concerned it'd completely tear me apart with guilt and stress. With this structure, though... good god. I could have had a four point as an undergrad, probably.
The awesome part is that I don't even have to take it every night. I just use the rozerem as a supplemental and it keeps my sleep schedule totally regular. I haven't used my fucking alarm in a week (which is INSANE for me -- I was driven completely by my alarm before this), because I just fall asleep at midnight, wake up whenever I'm not sleepy anymore (about 8.5 hours later on average), and then just kill time checking the news and blogs until about 10:20, when I leave for lunch at 10:30 on campus.
Words cannot describe how happy I've been with the last couple weeks. I mean, the prozac is probably slowly working up my seratonin levels as well, but I think rozerem is responsible for the lion's share of my contentment right now.